Cravings

I'm having some serious cravings right now for I don't even know what. Just something to munch on. I really want a smoothie actually. Strawberries... but not fresh strawberries. Frozen strawberries. The kind with a lot of sugar. That we use at J&J. Gosh I miss ice cream. Summer will be hell if I work there a lot. haha. I don't even know what the status is on that.

Yesterday I talked to Darin at work about possibly picking about another department, because I am getting absolutely peanuts for hours. I was so sure I was not going to be able to make rent this month. Luckily I am able to, but it leaves very little money for much else. Per usual. He said he would look into it, that I should definitely talk to Yvette about what is going on there (which I intended to do today but discovered she had the day off!) and of course I know that I won't get many hours in photo, though it is my favorite place. I wish the higher-ups would just realize how poorly Mark is doing and just give me the job. I could make that place run so much better. Or maybe I have too much confidence in myself. But still. I want it.

But I digress. What I WAS talking about picking up more hours in another department. So he came to me today and we talked about it, and it has been decided that I will start working in Customer Service as well as Video and Photo. Hopefully this will give me at least 12 more hours a week, if not more. Which is fantastic. What is not fantastic is that they will mostly be night hours. Darin has it in his head that I am a night owl, and only a night owl. While being a night is true, I also need to grow up and starting acting like an adult. I can't do this while having to work until 10pm and being "allowed" to sleep until noon the next day. It seems like a pitiful excuse, I know.

I don't eat supper at work. I like to eat supper in the comfort of my own home. So when I work nights, I usually don't eat supper until at least 11pm. There have been a couple of times that I just wasn't hungry until midnight! While the rule of "don't eat two hours before bed" still applies, because I'm not going to bed until probably 2:30 or 3am, I just don't feel that this is a good idea. Another revelation! Aha!

While it seems kind of sucky, I need to be thanking my lucky stars that I even have this opportunity. I have been looking for another job and there is just not much out there. Well, not much out there in the way I want to go anyways. That would be more accurate. I want a full time job with "normal" hours, and a set schedule. I'm being too picky of course. Another escape tactic.

I just worry about my eating habits. I tend to eat better on the days that I work during the afternoon, rather than evening. It's easier.

I thought that typing an entry would help with this craving I'm having, but it's really not going away. I stop typing for a moment and it immediately comes back. I can even taste what it is I want. A fruit (strawberry!) popsicle. I have been eating a lot of those lately but I stopped buying it because I didn't have enough money... the Edy's brand only. Mmmm. Damn.

I need to stop thinking about that though. I should just go crawl into bed, though it's earlier than usual, and do crossword puzzles or sudoku. That's what I'll do. Take my Melatonin and just conk. I can eat in my dreams, and it won't go to my waist. =)

Final note, I overspent my WW points today. Like I said earlier I am allotted 44 points in a day. I used 56 today. That's tough. I've really never gone that far over since starting WW. Just goes to show how far off I really was in my thinking. But alas, tomorrow is another day. Hopefully it will be better. =)