So the short skinny on the fat story: I got really really REALLLY sick. Turns out, Influenza B. Yuck. Then turns out Influenza B AND Bronchitis! Double yuck! I am now on day 5 of no voice. That in itself should have its own blog! Life is proving hard and slightly embarrassing when one can not speak louder than a medium whisper. Especially when it comes to working in retail and service! I have picked up an eight hour shift for tomorrow and am not quite sure what to do about my voice. Possibly a sign will need to be placed stating that I currently have no voice and apologize for the inconvenience. It would make things easier than having to explain it over and over again. Hm. Will think on that more.
Hopefully it will turn around soon and I can have my voice back, God willing, and go on with my life. Be healthy. I really need to be healthy. However, this little bit of illness has brought down my weight to a range I am satisfied with, and I feel I am back on track for my goal. I have officially dropped ONE Weight Watcher food point! I now have 43 points to eat in a day instead of 44. This is very good news. I have broken out of the 350's. Hopefully this is not purely because of being ill and I can keep it up.
In other news, Jordan... oh lovely Jordan. He mailed me his old iPod, and I am loving it! I am excited to load it up and start using it for exercise. As soon as I get better, I am taking that bad boy out!
Alas, I must sleep and prepare for that early shift tomorrow. Just wanted to assure everyone that I am, indeed, not lost and am quite alive.
3.30.2009
3.22.2009
Another Good Week!
Posted another loss this week of almost 2 pounds, which is fantastic! I was convinced I was gaining... especially after weighed myself on Wednesday and I had gained 3 pounds. But I weighed myself tonight after work and I was down to 352.6! I hate how my body fluctuates like that. But I'll just keep weighing myself and working hard until I see a number I like. Could be a good or bad thing. It's a good thing as a short term goal. Not for the long term. One day at a time.
So this pumps me up for the week ahead. What does NOT pump me up is the weather forecast. It's supposed to be cloudy and rainy for most of the week. Doesn't really allow me to walk as I would like. I do have a raincoat in my closet, however. I can put that on and still take a walk... but that's no fun! Hopefully the forecast is wrong. I want to put to use the new fitness map feature I discovered on SparkPeople. It's fantastic! It And not just for the maps and walking... but with any exercise I do. I can calculate how long I did it for and what intensity, and it automatically counts it. Very exciting. I think I am finally starting to get the hang out SparkPeople and am using it for what it is meant for. Another thing that gets me excited.
I also work days all next week, a fairly regular schedule, so my eating should be balanced and regular. Along with having started getting everything cleaned in my apartment (one of my short-term goals I made in the beginning!), this week will be a fantastic start for me. Well, not really a full start, because I've been at this for a while. What I mean is a good start for me to concentrate on me and not have to worry about anything else for once. It's a good feeling. Really good.
It is late once again, and I don't know why I am up this time. But Artemis once again is on my case. He watches out for me, no matter how annoying he has to be to get his point across... I think he is giving me final call.
So this pumps me up for the week ahead. What does NOT pump me up is the weather forecast. It's supposed to be cloudy and rainy for most of the week. Doesn't really allow me to walk as I would like. I do have a raincoat in my closet, however. I can put that on and still take a walk... but that's no fun! Hopefully the forecast is wrong. I want to put to use the new fitness map feature I discovered on SparkPeople. It's fantastic! It And not just for the maps and walking... but with any exercise I do. I can calculate how long I did it for and what intensity, and it automatically counts it. Very exciting. I think I am finally starting to get the hang out SparkPeople and am using it for what it is meant for. Another thing that gets me excited.
I also work days all next week, a fairly regular schedule, so my eating should be balanced and regular. Along with having started getting everything cleaned in my apartment (one of my short-term goals I made in the beginning!), this week will be a fantastic start for me. Well, not really a full start, because I've been at this for a while. What I mean is a good start for me to concentrate on me and not have to worry about anything else for once. It's a good feeling. Really good.
It is late once again, and I don't know why I am up this time. But Artemis once again is on my case. He watches out for me, no matter how annoying he has to be to get his point across... I think he is giving me final call.
3.21.2009
Spring Cleaning
So it's after 2:30am and I am still awake and happen to be enjoying a (caffeine free) Diet Coke on my couch, checking my email, taking a break from the cleaning I've been doing. I got back not that long ago from Wal-Mart actually. I spent lots of money! BUT! On cleaning supplies. I only got one food item (good for me! yay!) and that is Special K crackers, which I intend on portioning out and putting into baggies. In a place I can't reach very easily, so I have to work for it if I want them. Good plan I think. And not only that, they are the tomato herb kind, which don't hit me as big as the regular multi-grain. Crisis diverted.
I did buy two Rubbermaid totes... one for my Christmas stuff that I really need to pull down and put away (I have mostly just lights out, seeing as I couldn't use my tree because Artemis is crazy!), and one for all these envelopes of pictures I am finding all over! I need to put them somewhere until I can really go through them and decide what to do with them. I then bought new toilet scrubbies, kitty litter, refillable cleaning solution (because it was on sale and I've really been wanting to get one of those!), air freshener, hangers, and that toilet bowl cleaning stuff that you "stamp" onto the bowl... it just looked cool, and thought it would help keep it clean. It was about $40 all together. Not too horrible considering what I got and how much I got, but still makes me cringe thinking about it. I should just become a recluse and stop stepping into stores all together! I'd be out of a job then, but hey. I wouldn't be spending money. haha.
I still have stuff sitting on my bed. I decided earliertoday yesterday that the only way my bedroom was going to get clean was if I picked everything up off of the floor and put it on my bed. That way I could vacuum and get rid of the icky grittiness on the floor from Artemis' litter and my dirt outside, and be able to put the autism aside for awhile so I could actually clean. So, I did exactly that. After I vacuumed I put away the clean clothes, put the dirty ones in the basket, and started collecting garbage. I then had to go for supper and the meeting, so that is about where I stopped. When I got back I started sorting out the desk/nightstand drawer and shelf, and throwing away more garbage. I am about 85% done. I need to be 95% done in order to crawl into my bed to go to sleep. The rest of the junk is on top of my dresser and can be done tomorrow. However, time seems to move fast in the middle of the night while there is no one around to distract me, and it is now quarter to three. At least I don't have to work until 4pm tomorrow today. Oh, I need to change Artemis' box before bed... he's kicking it all over the place. And destroying stuff in my living room to let me know that he is not happy with that situation. Therefore, it must be done. No worries.
It is officially spring now, you know. So I really am doing spring cleaning. It's a good thing, as Martha Stewart would say. And it is one of my goals, to clean up my apartment and keep it clean. I know I do that it will make it easier to want to be in here and cook and keep it clean and just generally take better care of myself. I think my apartment is a reflection of how I am feeling most of the time. If my apartment is a wreck, I'm a wreck. And I know it's pretty bad when I don't even have a clear pathway anymore.
Artemis is prodding me to go give him a treat and go to bed. I suppose I should listen to him... he is the boss after all...
I did buy two Rubbermaid totes... one for my Christmas stuff that I really need to pull down and put away (I have mostly just lights out, seeing as I couldn't use my tree because Artemis is crazy!), and one for all these envelopes of pictures I am finding all over! I need to put them somewhere until I can really go through them and decide what to do with them. I then bought new toilet scrubbies, kitty litter, refillable cleaning solution (because it was on sale and I've really been wanting to get one of those!), air freshener, hangers, and that toilet bowl cleaning stuff that you "stamp" onto the bowl... it just looked cool, and thought it would help keep it clean. It was about $40 all together. Not too horrible considering what I got and how much I got, but still makes me cringe thinking about it. I should just become a recluse and stop stepping into stores all together! I'd be out of a job then, but hey. I wouldn't be spending money. haha.
I still have stuff sitting on my bed. I decided earlier
It is officially spring now, you know. So I really am doing spring cleaning. It's a good thing, as Martha Stewart would say. And it is one of my goals, to clean up my apartment and keep it clean. I know I do that it will make it easier to want to be in here and cook and keep it clean and just generally take better care of myself. I think my apartment is a reflection of how I am feeling most of the time. If my apartment is a wreck, I'm a wreck. And I know it's pretty bad when I don't even have a clear pathway anymore.
Artemis is prodding me to go give him a treat and go to bed. I suppose I should listen to him... he is the boss after all...
3.20.2009
Hippie-Hippie-Hooray!
I'm such a hippie. I love nature. I was so happy to be outside today. I just had to hug this gigantic tree. Nice. I love it! haha
Tried to run off to bed again without blogging. I don't have much to say today. I did give in to the ice cream, but I had a pretty good day otherwise. Took a walk with my mom and took pictures along the way now that it doesn't have that black spot in it. Cooked supper for the family, and it was fantastic... Pineapple Chicken Skewers. And it was pretty, no less! I was very proud of myself.
I hope to go for another walk tomorrow and for sure clean my apartment. I think Artemis is going stir-crazy and he has been making a mess of the place. I need to get rid of the things he can make a mess of. Then I will go pick up my cousin TJ with mom, have supper, weigh in, do our meeting, and then... I don't know what. Play with TJ some more I guess. He's spending the weekend with us. Fun! I can't wait to spend time with him. And he's a fireball, so I hope that will count as some exercise. All that chasing around. Man! He's like the energizer bunny.
I hope I stay on track tomorrow!
3.19.2009
Takes the Cake certainly does!
So, note to self: Even though Edy's Slow Churned Takes the Cake flavored Ice Cream is better than some ice creams regardng calories and fat, that does not mean you can eat more of it. Measure out the portions, do not eat it directly out of the box. Because it tastes too good to stop at just 1/2 cup! That will become 2 cups instead. My oh my does it taste good. I need to stop that habit with ice cream though, eating it right out of the container... even though it is easier and requires less dishes for me to wash (much) later, it obviously does not work all that well for me.
I had my evening food all backwards tonight... I ate that ice cream as soon as I got home from Wal-Mart at about 8:30 and didn't make supper (HG's French Onion Soup and BLT (minus L) Sandwich) until 10:30. I need to work on that. As I have said before. Luckily next week I work all days. This Saturday I work an evening, but the rest of the week will be an easy flow. I hope.
Point wise I was doing fine today up until the cake ice cream. I don't know why I got it... I was going to grab the vanilla slow churned and instead grabbed that. It just looked so yummy. And I didn't actually get real cake tonight like planned (that's not a real excuse... but bear with me) because my cousin is sick. So no birthday party this evening, it has been moved to Sunday. Luckily, because I ended up having a work meeting this evening. Which went fine. It was for the photo lab. Yeah... anyways. Moving away from that subject.
I was just thinking, as I was grabbing the cat's food, how much this blog is helping me. I was thinking earlier today about how it's kind of silly and egocentric to write completely about me and my weight loss and not much else. But I really am holding myself accountable to this blog and whoever may be reading it. I was going to go to bed but I was like "Nope. Need to write. You ate too much ice cream. You must do one thing good for yourself before bed, and that is to blog and check your SparkPeople page." So here I am! I just need to keep in mind that I can't slack on this. I need to keep going. Blogging for me is almost like exercising for other people... it gets me pumped up. Keeps me on track. Of course blogging is not going to help me lose any calories, no matter how fast I type, but it's a good thing for me to keep track of what works and what doesn't, my behaviors and habits, my cravings and... basically everything. This is like a detailed food journal. Oh, for the love of my thought processes. I need to type out what I am thinking in real time just so I can understand it. Gotta love that brain of mine!
When I was at Wal-Mart tonight I looked at pedometers. Well, actually, just pedometer. They only have one brand there. Which I thought was weird. It was $5 and I wanted to make sure I was getting a good one before I bought it, so I called my mom to ask her... but she was busy and I didn't really want to bother her, so I called my aunt. Turns out she has one I can use! And not only that, but it is a Weight Watchers Pedometer, and she said it will even tell me when I have earned one activity point from walking! Which is exciting. Now I can definitely find out how much I am doing at work for real. Steps and all. I can't wait. I'll get that on Sunday when we go up to the cities for the party.
And this Friday is our weekly meeting... I think I am going to weigh-in again tomorrow. I am cooking supper for my parents from the Hungry-Girl cookbook (again!) tomorrow as well. AND I'm going to go for a walk with my camera now that it is fixed and working well. Big plans. But in order to do that I should go to bed a (semi) decent time so I can wake up early enough to do it all. I get paid tomorrow too! It will definitely be a good day tomorrow.
Goal for tomorrow- Avoid the cake ice cream, go for at least an hour walk, and clean the kitchen. I have a grocery bag sitting in my sink because I had no where else to put it! Must put away those dishes. haha.
I had my evening food all backwards tonight... I ate that ice cream as soon as I got home from Wal-Mart at about 8:30 and didn't make supper (HG's French Onion Soup and BLT (minus L) Sandwich) until 10:30. I need to work on that. As I have said before. Luckily next week I work all days. This Saturday I work an evening, but the rest of the week will be an easy flow. I hope.
Point wise I was doing fine today up until the cake ice cream. I don't know why I got it... I was going to grab the vanilla slow churned and instead grabbed that. It just looked so yummy. And I didn't actually get real cake tonight like planned (that's not a real excuse... but bear with me) because my cousin is sick. So no birthday party this evening, it has been moved to Sunday. Luckily, because I ended up having a work meeting this evening. Which went fine. It was for the photo lab. Yeah... anyways. Moving away from that subject.
I was just thinking, as I was grabbing the cat's food, how much this blog is helping me. I was thinking earlier today about how it's kind of silly and egocentric to write completely about me and my weight loss and not much else. But I really am holding myself accountable to this blog and whoever may be reading it. I was going to go to bed but I was like "Nope. Need to write. You ate too much ice cream. You must do one thing good for yourself before bed, and that is to blog and check your SparkPeople page." So here I am! I just need to keep in mind that I can't slack on this. I need to keep going. Blogging for me is almost like exercising for other people... it gets me pumped up. Keeps me on track. Of course blogging is not going to help me lose any calories, no matter how fast I type, but it's a good thing for me to keep track of what works and what doesn't, my behaviors and habits, my cravings and... basically everything. This is like a detailed food journal. Oh, for the love of my thought processes. I need to type out what I am thinking in real time just so I can understand it. Gotta love that brain of mine!
When I was at Wal-Mart tonight I looked at pedometers. Well, actually, just pedometer. They only have one brand there. Which I thought was weird. It was $5 and I wanted to make sure I was getting a good one before I bought it, so I called my mom to ask her... but she was busy and I didn't really want to bother her, so I called my aunt. Turns out she has one I can use! And not only that, but it is a Weight Watchers Pedometer, and she said it will even tell me when I have earned one activity point from walking! Which is exciting. Now I can definitely find out how much I am doing at work for real. Steps and all. I can't wait. I'll get that on Sunday when we go up to the cities for the party.
And this Friday is our weekly meeting... I think I am going to weigh-in again tomorrow. I am cooking supper for my parents from the Hungry-Girl cookbook (again!) tomorrow as well. AND I'm going to go for a walk with my camera now that it is fixed and working well. Big plans. But in order to do that I should go to bed a (semi) decent time so I can wake up early enough to do it all. I get paid tomorrow too! It will definitely be a good day tomorrow.
Goal for tomorrow- Avoid the cake ice cream, go for at least an hour walk, and clean the kitchen. I have a grocery bag sitting in my sink because I had no where else to put it! Must put away those dishes. haha.
3.18.2009
Rock Out Music!
Let me start by saying I have had a very long day. So I can not be held liable for anything confusing that comes out of my mouth fingertips.
I worked from 8am to 6pm today... ten hours. To some people that is a regular workday, but for me that is 2-4 hours longer than I usually work. And I had to work in two departments, no less... its slightly hard for my brain to switch gears like that. I did alright today though. Luckily there wasn't too much work to do in Photo. I helped out in customer service too... so it's really like I worked in 3 departments today. Yikes.
Anyways, it's money in the bank, so I can't complain too badly. Especially when I need that money so badly. Hopefully that stress will go away soon, if I keep picking up hours like this. Next week I have 32 hours so far. That's pretty good.
I work again tomorrow from 8am-4pm. That's a regular opening shift for the video store. It just seems so early, unfortunately. Especially considering it is now midnight and I am sitting here writing in my blog instead of going to sleep. Right after this though I will. I need to. So tired.
One thing that has been keeping me up at night is this music. I am a huge fan of projectplaylist.com and have created tons of different music playlists for all different occasions. Lately I have been working on two different ones. One for my cousin Erin, who just turned 11. I want to expose her to a lot of good music... The Beatles, The Stones, Bob Dylan, CCR, etc. Good old stuff, that will expand her horizons beyond the Jonas Brothers and High School Musical. It's actually pretty good and I like listening to it. I always think of songs late at night to put on it.
The second one is a workout playlist. That's what I am listening to and working on at this exact moment, while doing this. I'm trying to find the best way to arrange it right now... do I want the slower songs at the beginning for stretching, or should I just throw everything where ever it will land and hope it works? Here is what I have so far:
Postal Service- Such Great Heights
Frou Frou- Let Go
Journey- Don't Stop Believin'
Fallout Boy- Dance, Dance
Ok Go- Here It Goes Again
Frou Frou- Close Up
Daft Punk- Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger
The Strokes- Last Night
The Jets- Are You Gonna Be My Girl?
Black Eyed Peas- Pump It
Basement Jaxx- Red Alert
The Muffs- Kids in America
Rick Springfield- Jessie's Girl
REM- It's the End of the World
Nena- 99 Luftballons
Not too shabby. I'm one for weird arrangements with many styles of songs. But I think most of these have the recurring 4/4 pounding beat... the beginning of the list does not. That's less pounding. But it ramps up to it. Gotta love that pounding beat! Now if only I had an Ipod I could put these on, and a gym to join and workout in. haha. I'd almost be a stereotypical American!
Anybody have any recommendations for good workout songs? I followed the SparkPeople guide, and it led me to some of these songs. I'm looking for more! Music really does get me going.
Well, it is creeping further past midnight, and despite what I really want, I still have to work tomorrow. So I should go to bed so I'm not late. And then tomorrow evening is my cousin's birthday party... I hope I don't eat too much cake! Gosh I love cake. And homemade ice cream. I must budget my points for it!
Wish me luck with the cake! haha.
I worked from 8am to 6pm today... ten hours. To some people that is a regular workday, but for me that is 2-4 hours longer than I usually work. And I had to work in two departments, no less... its slightly hard for my brain to switch gears like that. I did alright today though. Luckily there wasn't too much work to do in Photo. I helped out in customer service too... so it's really like I worked in 3 departments today. Yikes.
Anyways, it's money in the bank, so I can't complain too badly. Especially when I need that money so badly. Hopefully that stress will go away soon, if I keep picking up hours like this. Next week I have 32 hours so far. That's pretty good.
I work again tomorrow from 8am-4pm. That's a regular opening shift for the video store. It just seems so early, unfortunately. Especially considering it is now midnight and I am sitting here writing in my blog instead of going to sleep. Right after this though I will. I need to. So tired.
One thing that has been keeping me up at night is this music. I am a huge fan of projectplaylist.com and have created tons of different music playlists for all different occasions. Lately I have been working on two different ones. One for my cousin Erin, who just turned 11. I want to expose her to a lot of good music... The Beatles, The Stones, Bob Dylan, CCR, etc. Good old stuff, that will expand her horizons beyond the Jonas Brothers and High School Musical. It's actually pretty good and I like listening to it. I always think of songs late at night to put on it.
The second one is a workout playlist. That's what I am listening to and working on at this exact moment, while doing this. I'm trying to find the best way to arrange it right now... do I want the slower songs at the beginning for stretching, or should I just throw everything where ever it will land and hope it works? Here is what I have so far:
Postal Service- Such Great Heights
Frou Frou- Let Go
Journey- Don't Stop Believin'
Fallout Boy- Dance, Dance
Ok Go- Here It Goes Again
Frou Frou- Close Up
Daft Punk- Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger
The Strokes- Last Night
The Jets- Are You Gonna Be My Girl?
Black Eyed Peas- Pump It
Basement Jaxx- Red Alert
The Muffs- Kids in America
Rick Springfield- Jessie's Girl
REM- It's the End of the World
Nena- 99 Luftballons
Not too shabby. I'm one for weird arrangements with many styles of songs. But I think most of these have the recurring 4/4 pounding beat... the beginning of the list does not. That's less pounding. But it ramps up to it. Gotta love that pounding beat! Now if only I had an Ipod I could put these on, and a gym to join and workout in. haha. I'd almost be a stereotypical American!
Anybody have any recommendations for good workout songs? I followed the SparkPeople guide, and it led me to some of these songs. I'm looking for more! Music really does get me going.
Well, it is creeping further past midnight, and despite what I really want, I still have to work tomorrow. So I should go to bed so I'm not late. And then tomorrow evening is my cousin's birthday party... I hope I don't eat too much cake! Gosh I love cake. And homemade ice cream. I must budget my points for it!
Wish me luck with the cake! haha.
3.15.2009
Weight Loss!
My weight is down 3.5lbs since last Tuesday! YAY! I am very very happy. It really gets me going when I see progress. It proves to me that what I am doing IS working, and I should continue doing it instead of giving up. So I am officially at 355.1 at the moment. Can't wait to weigh in next week! Hope it stays on the same path.
I got my own copy of the Hungry Girl cookbook now (instead of the library's copy), and it's so pretty and shiny and wonderful. I can actually write in it if I want, which I will because I'm going to write the Weight Watcher point values next to every recipe. Tonight I actually made TWO things out of it! And they were delicious. And only equaled about 9 points together, and that is including two servings of ranch dressing. I made a BLT salad (made with turkey bacon) and French Onion Soup. YUM. Just enough to fill me up. For an evening snack (not so much snack, but still good) I ate some Spinach Munchies, which I found in the natural foods department. It has soy cheese inside.. it was good, but I could certainly tell it was not real cheese. But yum... spinach. That was 7 points. So it nearly equaled my supper. But I had points to spare. However, it appears that soy does not like me... my tummy feels like it's doing cartwheels. But maybe this is something that will pass the more I eat it. Hopefully, because I bought some soy milk to use in recipes. I also bought some tofu noodles, which I have never had. We will see how that treats me as well.
I spent WAAAAYYYY too much money. I've been trying to buy "investment pieces" for my kitchen, and it is starting to add up. I think I am starting to spend beyond my means... again. Of course I could be wrong, I need to check (and start keeping track in a register what I am pulling out of my checking!)... but I am pretty sure I am not going to have much to spend until Thursday when I get paid. I have plenty of food here though, so as long as I bag up my lunch for work, I should be fine. Thank goodness.
Went for a walk with my Aunt Chris and her dog Jaycee. It was short but definitely worth it. It was gorgeous out today. I also went for a walk on Friday and took almost 100 pictures before discovering that there was a spot in all of them. Turns out there was dust on one of the mirrors or a sensor or something. Something that I could not figure out how to clean! I opened up everything and tried cleaning it, and obviously missed that part. Luckily my Aunt DeeDee has the same camera and knows how to clean it. I am so glad she is a photographer. Chris took it up to the cities with her, DeeDee fixed it, and I had it back in my hands today. Fantastic!! It will probably be Thursday before I can get out for a walk again, but when I do I will bring it with.
Lots of day hours this week. On Tuesday I will be working 10 hours. So Thursday will be a welcome relief. I hope it will be beautiful outside.
Well, I am growing increasingly tired and have to work in the morning, so I should go to bed. But trust me, I am pumped for this week and hope to stay on track!
I got my own copy of the Hungry Girl cookbook now (instead of the library's copy), and it's so pretty and shiny and wonderful. I can actually write in it if I want, which I will because I'm going to write the Weight Watcher point values next to every recipe. Tonight I actually made TWO things out of it! And they were delicious. And only equaled about 9 points together, and that is including two servings of ranch dressing. I made a BLT salad (made with turkey bacon) and French Onion Soup. YUM. Just enough to fill me up. For an evening snack (not so much snack, but still good) I ate some Spinach Munchies, which I found in the natural foods department. It has soy cheese inside.. it was good, but I could certainly tell it was not real cheese. But yum... spinach. That was 7 points. So it nearly equaled my supper. But I had points to spare. However, it appears that soy does not like me... my tummy feels like it's doing cartwheels. But maybe this is something that will pass the more I eat it. Hopefully, because I bought some soy milk to use in recipes. I also bought some tofu noodles, which I have never had. We will see how that treats me as well.
I spent WAAAAYYYY too much money. I've been trying to buy "investment pieces" for my kitchen, and it is starting to add up. I think I am starting to spend beyond my means... again. Of course I could be wrong, I need to check (and start keeping track in a register what I am pulling out of my checking!)... but I am pretty sure I am not going to have much to spend until Thursday when I get paid. I have plenty of food here though, so as long as I bag up my lunch for work, I should be fine. Thank goodness.
Went for a walk with my Aunt Chris and her dog Jaycee. It was short but definitely worth it. It was gorgeous out today. I also went for a walk on Friday and took almost 100 pictures before discovering that there was a spot in all of them. Turns out there was dust on one of the mirrors or a sensor or something. Something that I could not figure out how to clean! I opened up everything and tried cleaning it, and obviously missed that part. Luckily my Aunt DeeDee has the same camera and knows how to clean it. I am so glad she is a photographer. Chris took it up to the cities with her, DeeDee fixed it, and I had it back in my hands today. Fantastic!! It will probably be Thursday before I can get out for a walk again, but when I do I will bring it with.
Lots of day hours this week. On Tuesday I will be working 10 hours. So Thursday will be a welcome relief. I hope it will be beautiful outside.
Well, I am growing increasingly tired and have to work in the morning, so I should go to bed. But trust me, I am pumped for this week and hope to stay on track!
3.13.2009
Hungry Girl
So tonight was the "Family + Bridget Weight Watchers" meeting... we get together once a week to discuss what we are doing, how we are doing, share tips, secrets, books, and coupons, and generally have fun. I have found that this makes it a wonderful time for me to go grocery shopping after we meet because I am pumped full of energy and excited for what I can do... so I went grocery shopping tonight. I spent a LOT of money... more than I intended too. But hopefully it is healthier stuff than I have been eating.
Aside from the meeting and grocery shopping today, I also went to the library. First, I actually walked there. Which is good. Especially considering it is like what... 4 blocks away from my house? I shouldn't even waste the gas to drive over there really. Yet I do. Consistently. I dropped off some things that were horrible overdue (I really need to pull my life together!), paid off my fine (Yikes!), and then sat down at the catalog computer and searched for weight loss books. First I searched for cookbooks, because I really need to get away from this frozen meal trend I am in and actually start COOKING. I love cooking, I just don't have the space, time, or ambition to do it. Seriously, I don't have counters in my apartment. It's terribly sad. I keep thinking about ways I could possibly fix it, because the rolling cart my mom bought for me is doing nothing is collecting my keys when I come home at the end of the day. And keeps utensils that I never use in its drawers. I'm thinking I need to make my sink like that of an RV and create a board to go over it. This would solve two things... I would have to wash my dishes if I wanted to have any cooking space, and it would give me a space TO cook things on. Well, not really cook, obviously, but prepare things. Again, I ramble.
Anyways, cookbooks. I literally sat on the floor and just looked for something that popped out at me. I am very particular about my cook books. I need to be able to open it and find these three things: 1) Pictures. I hate cooking something without knowing what it is supposed to look like. 2) Few ingredients. And in those few ingredients, it can't be anything outlandish or crazy that I wouldn't have already in my pantry or wouldn't have easy access to. And 3) it needs to have all the nutritional information. Number three is a newer requirement. I also prefer for the recipe to be easy, but that is not necessary. That usually comes along with the few ingredients requirement.
So I am sitting there pulling out books and glancing, putting things back almost as soon as I pull them out, trying to find newer ones with healthier recipes, and I come across the HUNGRY GIRL cookbook. It's bright, it's colorful, it has pictures (not of every recipe, but it says that you can see them all online), and it looks easy. I start flipping through it and am flat out amazed! It has amazing recipes, all of them with the weight watcher points available right online, and not only that, every one either is one serving or four. I have found heaven, and it lies in a cookbook. No joke. I stick it under my arm and go on my merry way, finding two other books and then getting my butt out of there before I find more things to get late fees on.
I decided I am going to make one of the salads, the Fajita Steak Salad, tomorrow for my family. It looks delicious, and it is only 5 points. I might make a few adjustments, but it will still be quite point worthy. I am happy.
My grandma has offered to buy it for me, which makes me even happier. I really want to try like every single recipe in there. So now I know I will at least be eating healthier suppers. It also includes desert and drink recipes, so now I know when I am partying I can keep the calories down as well. Not that I party a lot. I want to try the mojito and the daiquiri. Maybe another dinner party is in the works! I need to get a proper job before I can do that though.
Which brings me back to my grocery shopping. I went to both the Wise and Wal-Mart this evening... I got the thing I needed for supper tomorrow night, as well as a plethora of stuff I probably don't need but wanted anyways. I got several Smart Ones and a few Lean Cuisines, I bought frozen strawberries so I can make my own fruit bars (if only I could find a popsicle mold now! Dollar Store maybe?), Special K Crackers (they are going to be my downfall... maybe I shouldn't buy them anymore? I can eat a whole box in one sitting. Not good), some pasta, meat that I am going to portion out, pre-cook, and freeze... I got bagged salad. Oh! Question! Can bagged salad be frozen? I was worried it would make the lettuce too mushy when thawing.. I'll have to find out. I still have a coupon for it for the Wise that makes it only 68cents a bag! Not too shabby, when it is usually $1.68. You see, I like my bargains. Cereal... Corn Flakes are only two points for one cup, and that includes milk! Also not bad. However, I need to increase my points for breakfast, so maybe it wasn't the smartest idea... but at least I am thinking about it!
So many temptations, however. It doesn't matter if I have just eaten my way through a cave, whenever I step foot inside a grocery store I will instantly be hungry. This makes work a little difficult. Especially when the time clock is past the truckload aisle and, like I said, I can't resist good deal. I did buy Cheetos... mozzarella kind. They are new. They taste just like the regular kind, but are white so they don't leave orange on your fingers. haha. I disgustingly ate the whole bag this evening. And then chomped on a whole bunch of those crackers. Washed down with two caf free diet cokes. I need to stop this habit of munching in the evening. I really need to figure out what it is that is leading me to do that. Well, I probably already know. Hmph. I also need to stop watching the food channel in the evening when I know I am most likely to munch. Its not good for me.
This week I have gained two pounds, bringing me up to 358.6 sadly. That is still 10lbs down from where I started at the end of January, but I am still not happy with it. I need to get back on track and be pushed down the rails. This is proving to be far difficult than I originally thought. And I was doing so well for awhile, and then I got too cocky and thought I could do it while eating regular foods. I was so wrong!
I have the intention of making an appointment with my doctor this week to get a few things checked out, and then I was possibly thinking of making an appointment with the nutritionist again just to have that added support as well, now that I have goals in mind as well as a plan and a strategy. I also need to exercise more. Was possibly thinking of bringing up the topic of joining a gym to my mother. Family plan maybe? I wish there was a gym in town that had a pool!
I seriously can't wait for spring. I want to bust out my camera and take some amazing photos so badly. Hoping it comes sooner than later!
Oh, and just a request... if you see I haven't written in a few days, please poke me, much like Cassie did. =) I need to stay on top of this blog, and I honestly will forget how long it has been since I have written.
Hope everyone has a fantastic weekend!
Aside from the meeting and grocery shopping today, I also went to the library. First, I actually walked there. Which is good. Especially considering it is like what... 4 blocks away from my house? I shouldn't even waste the gas to drive over there really. Yet I do. Consistently. I dropped off some things that were horrible overdue (I really need to pull my life together!), paid off my fine (Yikes!), and then sat down at the catalog computer and searched for weight loss books. First I searched for cookbooks, because I really need to get away from this frozen meal trend I am in and actually start COOKING. I love cooking, I just don't have the space, time, or ambition to do it. Seriously, I don't have counters in my apartment. It's terribly sad. I keep thinking about ways I could possibly fix it, because the rolling cart my mom bought for me is doing nothing is collecting my keys when I come home at the end of the day. And keeps utensils that I never use in its drawers. I'm thinking I need to make my sink like that of an RV and create a board to go over it. This would solve two things... I would have to wash my dishes if I wanted to have any cooking space, and it would give me a space TO cook things on. Well, not really cook, obviously, but prepare things. Again, I ramble.
Anyways, cookbooks. I literally sat on the floor and just looked for something that popped out at me. I am very particular about my cook books. I need to be able to open it and find these three things: 1) Pictures. I hate cooking something without knowing what it is supposed to look like. 2) Few ingredients. And in those few ingredients, it can't be anything outlandish or crazy that I wouldn't have already in my pantry or wouldn't have easy access to. And 3) it needs to have all the nutritional information. Number three is a newer requirement. I also prefer for the recipe to be easy, but that is not necessary. That usually comes along with the few ingredients requirement.
So I am sitting there pulling out books and glancing, putting things back almost as soon as I pull them out, trying to find newer ones with healthier recipes, and I come across the HUNGRY GIRL cookbook. It's bright, it's colorful, it has pictures (not of every recipe, but it says that you can see them all online), and it looks easy. I start flipping through it and am flat out amazed! It has amazing recipes, all of them with the weight watcher points available right online, and not only that, every one either is one serving or four. I have found heaven, and it lies in a cookbook. No joke. I stick it under my arm and go on my merry way, finding two other books and then getting my butt out of there before I find more things to get late fees on.
I decided I am going to make one of the salads, the Fajita Steak Salad, tomorrow for my family. It looks delicious, and it is only 5 points. I might make a few adjustments, but it will still be quite point worthy. I am happy.
My grandma has offered to buy it for me, which makes me even happier. I really want to try like every single recipe in there. So now I know I will at least be eating healthier suppers. It also includes desert and drink recipes, so now I know when I am partying I can keep the calories down as well. Not that I party a lot. I want to try the mojito and the daiquiri. Maybe another dinner party is in the works! I need to get a proper job before I can do that though.
Which brings me back to my grocery shopping. I went to both the Wise and Wal-Mart this evening... I got the thing I needed for supper tomorrow night, as well as a plethora of stuff I probably don't need but wanted anyways. I got several Smart Ones and a few Lean Cuisines, I bought frozen strawberries so I can make my own fruit bars (if only I could find a popsicle mold now! Dollar Store maybe?), Special K Crackers (they are going to be my downfall... maybe I shouldn't buy them anymore? I can eat a whole box in one sitting. Not good), some pasta, meat that I am going to portion out, pre-cook, and freeze... I got bagged salad. Oh! Question! Can bagged salad be frozen? I was worried it would make the lettuce too mushy when thawing.. I'll have to find out. I still have a coupon for it for the Wise that makes it only 68cents a bag! Not too shabby, when it is usually $1.68. You see, I like my bargains. Cereal... Corn Flakes are only two points for one cup, and that includes milk! Also not bad. However, I need to increase my points for breakfast, so maybe it wasn't the smartest idea... but at least I am thinking about it!
So many temptations, however. It doesn't matter if I have just eaten my way through a cave, whenever I step foot inside a grocery store I will instantly be hungry. This makes work a little difficult. Especially when the time clock is past the truckload aisle and, like I said, I can't resist good deal. I did buy Cheetos... mozzarella kind. They are new. They taste just like the regular kind, but are white so they don't leave orange on your fingers. haha. I disgustingly ate the whole bag this evening. And then chomped on a whole bunch of those crackers. Washed down with two caf free diet cokes. I need to stop this habit of munching in the evening. I really need to figure out what it is that is leading me to do that. Well, I probably already know. Hmph. I also need to stop watching the food channel in the evening when I know I am most likely to munch. Its not good for me.
This week I have gained two pounds, bringing me up to 358.6 sadly. That is still 10lbs down from where I started at the end of January, but I am still not happy with it. I need to get back on track and be pushed down the rails. This is proving to be far difficult than I originally thought. And I was doing so well for awhile, and then I got too cocky and thought I could do it while eating regular foods. I was so wrong!
I have the intention of making an appointment with my doctor this week to get a few things checked out, and then I was possibly thinking of making an appointment with the nutritionist again just to have that added support as well, now that I have goals in mind as well as a plan and a strategy. I also need to exercise more. Was possibly thinking of bringing up the topic of joining a gym to my mother. Family plan maybe? I wish there was a gym in town that had a pool!
I seriously can't wait for spring. I want to bust out my camera and take some amazing photos so badly. Hoping it comes sooner than later!
Oh, and just a request... if you see I haven't written in a few days, please poke me, much like Cassie did. =) I need to stay on top of this blog, and I honestly will forget how long it has been since I have written.
Hope everyone has a fantastic weekend!
3.10.2009
*Shiver*
It's so cold out! This storm was expected to be so bad... most people got ready for it, and instead I walked outside to pull the garbage bin back into the driveway in a t-shirt and crocs. Silly me! I should know better by now! But there are a lot of things I don't know better by now. I need to grow up a bit, methinks!
Today was an alright day. I worked 8-4, which made eating a little bit easier. Although I had a messed up schedule due to some idiocracy, I did eat breakfast (Apple Jacks, skim milk), a snack (onion rings... not so healthy), decent lunch (tuna salad, soup, sunchips), and good supper (chicken stuffing bake). What was not healthy, besides the onion rings, was the tortilla chips I ate when I got home from work. And then the 5 rice cakes I have eaten since supper. Those aren't horrible, but they start to add up. And I have had two large servings of salad. I just keep eating and eating. And it's amazing, because I don't even think about it. I'll just go into a daze, and it's like all of a sudden I wake up and lo and behold, I have a bowl of salad in my hands. It's strange. And it doesn't feel like it's out of boredom the times I am eating conciously... my tummy will growl. Hmm.
I feel like I'm making no headway since I've started again. I complained about this before! But it's true. I need to figure out a way to make this work for me again.
I have started by getting rid of all that is bad in my kitchen. I finished those cookies, those tortilla chips are gone, my bread has gone stale. No candy. I'm out of those fruit bars now again, even though they are not really that bad... they are pure fruit. However, I was eating 2 or 3 a day. Eh.
I need the winter blahs to go away and for spring to come into full swing. I can't wait for the summer so I can really do what I want to do and do this right.
I think I shall end this early. I'm not much in the mood for writing this evening, but I am trying to at least stick to my goal of writing. I must be off so I can arise (early) in the morning for yet another long day at work.
Today was an alright day. I worked 8-4, which made eating a little bit easier. Although I had a messed up schedule due to some idiocracy, I did eat breakfast (Apple Jacks, skim milk), a snack (onion rings... not so healthy), decent lunch (tuna salad, soup, sunchips), and good supper (chicken stuffing bake). What was not healthy, besides the onion rings, was the tortilla chips I ate when I got home from work. And then the 5 rice cakes I have eaten since supper. Those aren't horrible, but they start to add up. And I have had two large servings of salad. I just keep eating and eating. And it's amazing, because I don't even think about it. I'll just go into a daze, and it's like all of a sudden I wake up and lo and behold, I have a bowl of salad in my hands. It's strange. And it doesn't feel like it's out of boredom the times I am eating conciously... my tummy will growl. Hmm.
I feel like I'm making no headway since I've started again. I complained about this before! But it's true. I need to figure out a way to make this work for me again.
I have started by getting rid of all that is bad in my kitchen. I finished those cookies, those tortilla chips are gone, my bread has gone stale. No candy. I'm out of those fruit bars now again, even though they are not really that bad... they are pure fruit. However, I was eating 2 or 3 a day. Eh.
I need the winter blahs to go away and for spring to come into full swing. I can't wait for the summer so I can really do what I want to do and do this right.
I think I shall end this early. I'm not much in the mood for writing this evening, but I am trying to at least stick to my goal of writing. I must be off so I can arise (early) in the morning for yet another long day at work.
3.09.2009
Rough Day
Well, it was a rough weekend. I didn't stay on top of myself like I had hoped, especially yesterday. In fact, Sunday was the worst day of all. Friday and Saturday weren't too horrible. Sunday though.... by the time I reached my parents house for supper, I still had 30 points left to use. Thats insane! And I had eaten things, it just was that I hadn't eaten enough.
Unfortunately, I used all the points and then some. I am sure. Dad made a delicious enchilada casserole thing... basically just enchiladas without their usual form. I ate probably two servings of that because I was so hungry. I then ate a cookie and a brownie that they had been saving for me, and took an epic three hour nap on their couch. Man was I tired. As I should have been... I didn't get to sleep until almost 4am, and Mark made me come in to work today despite my protests otherwise. See, he had overscheduled himself for the week and needed to take one day off. He was insistent that it had to be Sunday. Not any of the other days I had off for the week. He is such an idiot. I know he just didn't want to be there. Plus he screwed up a whole bunch of orders before he left and I had to fix them when I got there.
But this is a diet blog, not a managers suck blog. Though I think he might have contributed to my downfall. Maybe.
So I am exhausted, tired, stressed, and pissed off already. I weighed myself tonight, and I have gained .8lbs. It's not a lot... close to one pound. However, I like to make mountains out of molehills. Always have been that way. And I am so frustrated with how things are going. So what do I do? I go to the grocery store. Of course.
My original plan was to buy some Special K Crackers (probably the healthiest crackers I've seen to date!) and Burt's Bees. Then I walked past the baking aisle and saw some frosting. Man did I want that frosting. I looked at the cake mixes... naw, didn't really want to make a cake. Cookies? Oh god.. cookies. They looked so good on the packages. But I didn't want to pay so much for the mixes. Chocolate chips? Oooo... Peanut Butter Chips. Shoot. I don't have brown sugar or baking soda/power/whatever you need for cookies. Forgo that idea. I really wanted chocolate... oh cupcakes. I head over to the bakery... ohemgee M&M cookies. And everyone knows Cash Wise has the best M&M cookies. They are so soft and delicious. I got them. And opened them before I even pulled out of the parking lot. And I proceeded to eat at least 5 of them before I got to my apartment. And then I ate 3 more. And then I felt all weird because I had eaten so much sugar, so I ate a couple of crackers. Which turned into a couple of crackers and cottage cheese. Which turned into massive guilt and hating my body and being angry at myself.
I know we all have our bad diet days and we should just shake it off and move on... but I feel like I am having too many bad diet days! Frustration is creeping in, and it feels so much worse this time because I really do want to lose this weight. A lot. In fact, I have started dreaming that I am thin. That is really amazing, because in all of my years I have never once dreamt that I was thin. It's strange. I've always just been myself. The past three days have been different.
I'm freaking out over nothing, I know. Man... it just feels silly. But right now I feel so hopeless... helpless. I'm not sure why. I just wish it was easier, like I could just lop the fat off with a knife and go on my merry way.
I need to go exercising this week. My mom wants me to do this indoor walking DVD with her, and I really don't want to. I feel silly exercising in front of a TV. I want to be outside. So if it's nice tomorrow, I'm going for a walk. I don't know where yet, but I'm sure I will be bringing my camera with so I can start to feel good about something! If you want to go with me and you have my phone number, please call me or text. If you don't have my number, facebook me. I also have evenings off almost all week, and am completely off Thursday and Friday if you would like to hook up then. I will be going either way. It would be nice to have some company. And maybe someone to have a coffee or.. carrot with afterwards. haha. Please join me! The more the merrier.
Unfortunately, I used all the points and then some. I am sure. Dad made a delicious enchilada casserole thing... basically just enchiladas without their usual form. I ate probably two servings of that because I was so hungry. I then ate a cookie and a brownie that they had been saving for me, and took an epic three hour nap on their couch. Man was I tired. As I should have been... I didn't get to sleep until almost 4am, and Mark made me come in to work today despite my protests otherwise. See, he had overscheduled himself for the week and needed to take one day off. He was insistent that it had to be Sunday. Not any of the other days I had off for the week. He is such an idiot. I know he just didn't want to be there. Plus he screwed up a whole bunch of orders before he left and I had to fix them when I got there.
But this is a diet blog, not a managers suck blog. Though I think he might have contributed to my downfall. Maybe.
So I am exhausted, tired, stressed, and pissed off already. I weighed myself tonight, and I have gained .8lbs. It's not a lot... close to one pound. However, I like to make mountains out of molehills. Always have been that way. And I am so frustrated with how things are going. So what do I do? I go to the grocery store. Of course.
My original plan was to buy some Special K Crackers (probably the healthiest crackers I've seen to date!) and Burt's Bees. Then I walked past the baking aisle and saw some frosting. Man did I want that frosting. I looked at the cake mixes... naw, didn't really want to make a cake. Cookies? Oh god.. cookies. They looked so good on the packages. But I didn't want to pay so much for the mixes. Chocolate chips? Oooo... Peanut Butter Chips. Shoot. I don't have brown sugar or baking soda/power/whatever you need for cookies. Forgo that idea. I really wanted chocolate... oh cupcakes. I head over to the bakery... ohemgee M&M cookies. And everyone knows Cash Wise has the best M&M cookies. They are so soft and delicious. I got them. And opened them before I even pulled out of the parking lot. And I proceeded to eat at least 5 of them before I got to my apartment. And then I ate 3 more. And then I felt all weird because I had eaten so much sugar, so I ate a couple of crackers. Which turned into a couple of crackers and cottage cheese. Which turned into massive guilt and hating my body and being angry at myself.
I know we all have our bad diet days and we should just shake it off and move on... but I feel like I am having too many bad diet days! Frustration is creeping in, and it feels so much worse this time because I really do want to lose this weight. A lot. In fact, I have started dreaming that I am thin. That is really amazing, because in all of my years I have never once dreamt that I was thin. It's strange. I've always just been myself. The past three days have been different.
I'm freaking out over nothing, I know. Man... it just feels silly. But right now I feel so hopeless... helpless. I'm not sure why. I just wish it was easier, like I could just lop the fat off with a knife and go on my merry way.
I need to go exercising this week. My mom wants me to do this indoor walking DVD with her, and I really don't want to. I feel silly exercising in front of a TV. I want to be outside. So if it's nice tomorrow, I'm going for a walk. I don't know where yet, but I'm sure I will be bringing my camera with so I can start to feel good about something! If you want to go with me and you have my phone number, please call me or text. If you don't have my number, facebook me. I also have evenings off almost all week, and am completely off Thursday and Friday if you would like to hook up then. I will be going either way. It would be nice to have some company. And maybe someone to have a coffee or.. carrot with afterwards. haha. Please join me! The more the merrier.
3.07.2009
Decent Day
Another long day! I worked 4pm-10pm in the video store today... like I said before, it's hard to keep eating on the proper schedule when I have to work in the evening and I'm sleeping in late. I slept in until 1:30 I believe... I actually don't even remember. I ate lunch and lounged around until I had to go to work.
I worked really really hard at work. I was amazed that despite how lovely it was outside, people still wanted to come and get movies. I would have totally been outside if I didn't have to be in that silly store giving them movies! It was gorgeous. Well, despite a few crazy customers the evening wasn't too bad. I stayed on my till all night though, running back and forth from there to the door. I ran probably only 20 movies the entire six hour shift.
I've been thinking... can work count as exercise/activity? Because often when I am working in the video store I am "running" around and even break a sweat most days! So when I work a six hour shift, I wonder if I really am getting in some exercise, even if it is not conventional. Maybe in that sense, six hours of work could equal one hour of exercise. I think that's an even trade. Only in video though, because I really do not do too much moving around in photo. And I'm not saying that I will kill conventional exercise completely... I just wonder if I should count that into my daily WW points. Food for thought.
Anyways, I was worried when I came home that I would not have enough points for the supper I had in mind. I journaled everything I had eaten today before I even made anything. I had more than enough, which was a good suprise. And then I went and opened up my freezer, grabbed one of those flatbread things that I love but are worth 10 points, and started to open it... when all of a sudden something else caught my eye. I love those Healthy Choice Steamer Bowls... you stick the whole thing in the microwave and it cooks all at once, sauce and noodles/rice/meat/whatever, but not mixed together, leaving whatever veggies and stuff that is in there to remain snappy and good, not soggy and gross like some microwave meals. And it's much more filling, yummy, and was only worth 6 points! I decided that was a good trade. I popped it in the microwave, set it for 6 minutes, grabbed some cottage cheese and sat down. Man was it good. Supper was filling. I was quite suprised.
I stopped at Walmart before I came home from work, and got a couple of things. Single serve chip bags. SunChips actually, which are delicious and a little more filling than the greasy ones. Soup! I love the Progresso Light single serve soups... the WW points are right on the label. The kind I get is Vegetable Noodle. Sooo good. And one full cup of it is only one point. They are much cheaper at Walmart than other stores I have seen them at.
And I broke down to my craving!! I bought those delicious strawberry fruit bars. $3 for one box of six. My cheap side aches. It's worth it though, with the taste. And one popsicle has only 80 calories. Much better than a regular popsicle or ice cream. However, I did a bad. I have been craving chocolate like nobodys business. I bought two Hershey bars while I was at Walmart, and ate one on my way home. I did the point count after, of course. 6 points for one whole bar! Thats worth the whole HC bowl I ate! Just for some chocolate. Well, either way it was delicious, and I had the points left to eat it. So now that craving is over, and I can move on. Thats the problem with my cravings... I eventually HAVE to eat whatever it is I a craving just so it is removed from my brain. It's like a fire... starts with a spark, spreads to a giant flame, and only water (thing I'm craving) can put it out. I was up really late last night just thinking about those popsicles. Now that I have had one, I'm ready to go to bed and fall asleep comfortably. Which I think I should do right about now. haha.
Tomorrow I work late again... hopefully I will wake up early enough to eat breakfast right away and start right.
I worked really really hard at work. I was amazed that despite how lovely it was outside, people still wanted to come and get movies. I would have totally been outside if I didn't have to be in that silly store giving them movies! It was gorgeous. Well, despite a few crazy customers the evening wasn't too bad. I stayed on my till all night though, running back and forth from there to the door. I ran probably only 20 movies the entire six hour shift.
I've been thinking... can work count as exercise/activity? Because often when I am working in the video store I am "running" around and even break a sweat most days! So when I work a six hour shift, I wonder if I really am getting in some exercise, even if it is not conventional. Maybe in that sense, six hours of work could equal one hour of exercise. I think that's an even trade. Only in video though, because I really do not do too much moving around in photo. And I'm not saying that I will kill conventional exercise completely... I just wonder if I should count that into my daily WW points. Food for thought.
Anyways, I was worried when I came home that I would not have enough points for the supper I had in mind. I journaled everything I had eaten today before I even made anything. I had more than enough, which was a good suprise. And then I went and opened up my freezer, grabbed one of those flatbread things that I love but are worth 10 points, and started to open it... when all of a sudden something else caught my eye. I love those Healthy Choice Steamer Bowls... you stick the whole thing in the microwave and it cooks all at once, sauce and noodles/rice/meat/whatever, but not mixed together, leaving whatever veggies and stuff that is in there to remain snappy and good, not soggy and gross like some microwave meals. And it's much more filling, yummy, and was only worth 6 points! I decided that was a good trade. I popped it in the microwave, set it for 6 minutes, grabbed some cottage cheese and sat down. Man was it good. Supper was filling. I was quite suprised.
I stopped at Walmart before I came home from work, and got a couple of things. Single serve chip bags. SunChips actually, which are delicious and a little more filling than the greasy ones. Soup! I love the Progresso Light single serve soups... the WW points are right on the label. The kind I get is Vegetable Noodle. Sooo good. And one full cup of it is only one point. They are much cheaper at Walmart than other stores I have seen them at.
And I broke down to my craving!! I bought those delicious strawberry fruit bars. $3 for one box of six. My cheap side aches. It's worth it though, with the taste. And one popsicle has only 80 calories. Much better than a regular popsicle or ice cream. However, I did a bad. I have been craving chocolate like nobodys business. I bought two Hershey bars while I was at Walmart, and ate one on my way home. I did the point count after, of course. 6 points for one whole bar! Thats worth the whole HC bowl I ate! Just for some chocolate. Well, either way it was delicious, and I had the points left to eat it. So now that craving is over, and I can move on. Thats the problem with my cravings... I eventually HAVE to eat whatever it is I a craving just so it is removed from my brain. It's like a fire... starts with a spark, spreads to a giant flame, and only water (thing I'm craving) can put it out. I was up really late last night just thinking about those popsicles. Now that I have had one, I'm ready to go to bed and fall asleep comfortably. Which I think I should do right about now. haha.
Tomorrow I work late again... hopefully I will wake up early enough to eat breakfast right away and start right.
3.05.2009
Cravings
I'm having some serious cravings right now for I don't even know what. Just something to munch on. I really want a smoothie actually. Strawberries... but not fresh strawberries. Frozen strawberries. The kind with a lot of sugar. That we use at J&J. Gosh I miss ice cream. Summer will be hell if I work there a lot. haha. I don't even know what the status is on that.
Yesterday I talked to Darin at work about possibly picking about another department, because I am getting absolutely peanuts for hours. I was so sure I was not going to be able to make rent this month. Luckily I am able to, but it leaves very little money for much else. Per usual. He said he would look into it, that I should definitely talk to Yvette about what is going on there (which I intended to do today but discovered she had the day off!) and of course I know that I won't get many hours in photo, though it is my favorite place. I wish the higher-ups would just realize how poorly Mark is doing and just give me the job. I could make that place run so much better. Or maybe I have too much confidence in myself. But still. I want it.
But I digress. What I WAS talking about picking up more hours in another department. So he came to me today and we talked about it, and it has been decided that I will start working in Customer Service as well as Video and Photo. Hopefully this will give me at least 12 more hours a week, if not more. Which is fantastic. What is not fantastic is that they will mostly be night hours. Darin has it in his head that I am a night owl, and only a night owl. While being a night is true, I also need to grow up and starting acting like an adult. I can't do this while having to work until 10pm and being "allowed" to sleep until noon the next day. It seems like a pitiful excuse, I know.
I don't eat supper at work. I like to eat supper in the comfort of my own home. So when I work nights, I usually don't eat supper until at least 11pm. There have been a couple of times that I just wasn't hungry until midnight! While the rule of "don't eat two hours before bed" still applies, because I'm not going to bed until probably 2:30 or 3am, I just don't feel that this is a good idea. Another revelation! Aha!
While it seems kind of sucky, I need to be thanking my lucky stars that I even have this opportunity. I have been looking for another job and there is just not much out there. Well, not much out there in the way I want to go anyways. That would be more accurate. I want a full time job with "normal" hours, and a set schedule. I'm being too picky of course. Another escape tactic.
I just worry about my eating habits. I tend to eat better on the days that I work during the afternoon, rather than evening. It's easier.
I thought that typing an entry would help with this craving I'm having, but it's really not going away. I stop typing for a moment and it immediately comes back. I can even taste what it is I want. A fruit (strawberry!) popsicle. I have been eating a lot of those lately but I stopped buying it because I didn't have enough money... the Edy's brand only. Mmmm. Damn.
I need to stop thinking about that though. I should just go crawl into bed, though it's earlier than usual, and do crossword puzzles or sudoku. That's what I'll do. Take my Melatonin and just conk. I can eat in my dreams, and it won't go to my waist. =)
Final note, I overspent my WW points today. Like I said earlier I am allotted 44 points in a day. I used 56 today. That's tough. I've really never gone that far over since starting WW. Just goes to show how far off I really was in my thinking. But alas, tomorrow is another day. Hopefully it will be better. =)
Yesterday I talked to Darin at work about possibly picking about another department, because I am getting absolutely peanuts for hours. I was so sure I was not going to be able to make rent this month. Luckily I am able to, but it leaves very little money for much else. Per usual. He said he would look into it, that I should definitely talk to Yvette about what is going on there (which I intended to do today but discovered she had the day off!) and of course I know that I won't get many hours in photo, though it is my favorite place. I wish the higher-ups would just realize how poorly Mark is doing and just give me the job. I could make that place run so much better. Or maybe I have too much confidence in myself. But still. I want it.
But I digress. What I WAS talking about picking up more hours in another department. So he came to me today and we talked about it, and it has been decided that I will start working in Customer Service as well as Video and Photo. Hopefully this will give me at least 12 more hours a week, if not more. Which is fantastic. What is not fantastic is that they will mostly be night hours. Darin has it in his head that I am a night owl, and only a night owl. While being a night is true, I also need to grow up and starting acting like an adult. I can't do this while having to work until 10pm and being "allowed" to sleep until noon the next day. It seems like a pitiful excuse, I know.
I don't eat supper at work. I like to eat supper in the comfort of my own home. So when I work nights, I usually don't eat supper until at least 11pm. There have been a couple of times that I just wasn't hungry until midnight! While the rule of "don't eat two hours before bed" still applies, because I'm not going to bed until probably 2:30 or 3am, I just don't feel that this is a good idea. Another revelation! Aha!
While it seems kind of sucky, I need to be thanking my lucky stars that I even have this opportunity. I have been looking for another job and there is just not much out there. Well, not much out there in the way I want to go anyways. That would be more accurate. I want a full time job with "normal" hours, and a set schedule. I'm being too picky of course. Another escape tactic.
I just worry about my eating habits. I tend to eat better on the days that I work during the afternoon, rather than evening. It's easier.
I thought that typing an entry would help with this craving I'm having, but it's really not going away. I stop typing for a moment and it immediately comes back. I can even taste what it is I want. A fruit (strawberry!) popsicle. I have been eating a lot of those lately but I stopped buying it because I didn't have enough money... the Edy's brand only. Mmmm. Damn.
I need to stop thinking about that though. I should just go crawl into bed, though it's earlier than usual, and do crossword puzzles or sudoku. That's what I'll do. Take my Melatonin and just conk. I can eat in my dreams, and it won't go to my waist. =)
Final note, I overspent my WW points today. Like I said earlier I am allotted 44 points in a day. I used 56 today. That's tough. I've really never gone that far over since starting WW. Just goes to show how far off I really was in my thinking. But alas, tomorrow is another day. Hopefully it will be better. =)
Oooh Pancakes!
So I am discovering one of my big problems since I stopped journaling my food! See, I thought I was being smart by continuing "healthy" choices... buying foods that should be alright for me and making sure I was eating all meals. Today I picked up my food journal again off my bedroom floor and decided to count points
For starters, I'm actually EATING breakfast. Which is a very good thing. A very very yummy Aunt Jemima's frozen pancake and sausage breakfast "platter". Oh is it good. I just throw on some syrup and a small bit of butter and mmmm... man. I just finished it and I'm feeling pretty good. =)
I get 44 Weight Watcher points a day at my current weight. I need to spread those points evenly through-out the day, and I need to make sure I do use all of them, but don't go over. If I do happen to go over, I get 35 extra points to spend for the entire week. Any exercise/activity I do can potentially earn activity points, which will give me back some points to eat. Activity points only last for one day though, and can not be banked.
So. That being said. I thought these pancakes weren't all that bad. Turns out that the shortstack, two pieces of sausage, syrup, and butter come to 13 points. Not fantastic. To put it in perspective, my mom gets 23 points in a day. That would have taken up over half of her points. But I have 44... so I'm still ok. For the moment.
I decided I'm going to bring lunch with me to work today because I really don't have much money and I don't feel like having to figure out what all the points are on the deli food I would eat. So I am bringing a flatbread chicken bacon ranch sandwich, lemon weight watchers yogurt, and a diet coke. Caffeine free. I found out that the flatbread itself is 10 points! I had no idea. Way to go Jessica for eating healthy! haha. I went the wrong way... from not eating at all to eating a lot of really unhealthy stuff. Crazy!
With the yogurt and pop, I have spent 24 points by the time lunch is finished. I have 20 left to use for two snacks and supper. Not too bad. I hate feeling like thats not a lot, because it is. It's silly how my brain works. Just like how for years if I had to work on a certain day, usually at night, I never felt like I could do anything for the rest of the day except sit there and get ready for work. Even if I was in class I would be thinking about having to go to work and would feel pressured. It's almost like that... I have so much time (points) left, but I feel like I have no time (points) left at all. I just need to work past that. Just takes practice.
I have to leave for work in 10 minutes and I'm not even dressed yet! I should probably do that. Maybe. Yea, I should. =) I'll try to post again tonight.
For starters, I'm actually EATING breakfast. Which is a very good thing. A very very yummy Aunt Jemima's frozen pancake and sausage breakfast "platter". Oh is it good. I just throw on some syrup and a small bit of butter and mmmm... man. I just finished it and I'm feeling pretty good. =)
I get 44 Weight Watcher points a day at my current weight. I need to spread those points evenly through-out the day, and I need to make sure I do use all of them, but don't go over. If I do happen to go over, I get 35 extra points to spend for the entire week. Any exercise/activity I do can potentially earn activity points, which will give me back some points to eat. Activity points only last for one day though, and can not be banked.
So. That being said. I thought these pancakes weren't all that bad. Turns out that the shortstack, two pieces of sausage, syrup, and butter come to 13 points. Not fantastic. To put it in perspective, my mom gets 23 points in a day. That would have taken up over half of her points. But I have 44... so I'm still ok. For the moment.
I decided I'm going to bring lunch with me to work today because I really don't have much money and I don't feel like having to figure out what all the points are on the deli food I would eat. So I am bringing a flatbread chicken bacon ranch sandwich, lemon weight watchers yogurt, and a diet coke. Caffeine free. I found out that the flatbread itself is 10 points! I had no idea. Way to go Jessica for eating healthy! haha. I went the wrong way... from not eating at all to eating a lot of really unhealthy stuff. Crazy!
With the yogurt and pop, I have spent 24 points by the time lunch is finished. I have 20 left to use for two snacks and supper. Not too bad. I hate feeling like thats not a lot, because it is. It's silly how my brain works. Just like how for years if I had to work on a certain day, usually at night, I never felt like I could do anything for the rest of the day except sit there and get ready for work. Even if I was in class I would be thinking about having to go to work and would feel pressured. It's almost like that... I have so much time (points) left, but I feel like I have no time (points) left at all. I just need to work past that. Just takes practice.
I have to leave for work in 10 minutes and I'm not even dressed yet! I should probably do that. Maybe. Yea, I should. =) I'll try to post again tonight.
3.04.2009
My Goals
I have never been one for goals. I hate them. With a passion. I never have set them before because I expect them to fail and I do not want to be disappointed. But I WANT to be upset if I fail this, because this is serious.
Short Term Goals:
- Lose 10% of weight (36 pounds since start)
- Exercise 3-4 days a week
- Clean my apartment for a fresh start
- Get a new job that will better suit a healthy lifestyle
- Finish setting up blog to better track progress
Long Term Goals:
- Lose 168 pounds by January 2011
- Keep the weight off
- Work on psychological traps
- Ramp exercise up to more than walking, and do it 5 days a week.
- Blog progress at least 5 times a week, if not everyday
- Take full body pictures every 10 weeks
I think these are feasible. A lot of work, but possible. I really want to get to that 200 lb mark, and then I can go from there. As it is, I have not weighed 200lbs since probably 7th grade. I would be extremely happy if I reached that.
It's going to be a long process, and I'm excited to blog about it. Please stick with me and help me save my life!
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